Something I wrote about a friend who I lost recently. |
One second you’re here Another you’re gone. Whispers of what you must be thinking Screams of what you must be saying The whispers and screams would be a blessing As the silence is a tortuous chamber of doubt I question and question what must be racing through your mind But your thoughts couldn’t be worse than mine So please Speak Yell Cry Whisper Say anything As the silence is pressing against my skull The agony, so true So real Say anything Scream your hatred Cry your betrayal Whisper your threats Just say something or else I will perish The gap of what used to be your space in my heart is gone, and I don’t know if it’ll ever fill again. Your face haunts my dreams and everyday my tears fall onto the floor in little drops Every tear a symbol of my remorse I thought you were missing But the truth came out today that I am just a bothersome A mindless fly that swat away from you You don’t care, do you? Where have you gone? Why won’t you answer? When will you be back? I could ask you so many times I could beg with you I could sit on my knees and pray to whoever is listening to my painful pleads But you won’t respond Your heart feels only hatred Bubbling Burning Hatred The kind that fuels your soul into a darkness My soul is in the ice cold type of darkness I’ve fallen through the thin ice I’m clawing on the surface, the water drowning out my screams The cold, icy water slips into my lungs and attempts to pull me under To a darkness that’s unreal And now I’m falling Falling Falling Falling I land in a darkness But no It isn’t the ground I’ve fallen onto the sky I see all the stars But one star is missing The star from you The biggest star A gap Almost as big As the gap In My Heart. |