Chronicles of 'A.E.D.'

A.E.D. my friends..is something that I made up in a time of my despair. It stands for, "Another Emotional Disaster", and as you may notice in my writing, that not all of it is really about my sheer despairing. most of it is about my life through the tough times of a 7th grader.


2-19-03- again my thoughts are back to Tj. AHHH! why must I fall for idiots? ...his eyes are so pertyful!! *dreamy sigh*

A.E.D. Quote, 3-24-03: "I had a dream I was making out with my boyfriends best friend only to find it had come true."

Another A.E.D Quote: I am a 13 year old shameless vixin with Boxers.

More Quotes: You never really get over someone, you just learn to live without them.





A.E.D Journal entry: in about a year, I've gone from Nervous little girl to a maybelline eyes hottie tottie. Its true...Derek, my first love is not moving back..but before he tells me this, he just has to go and break my little playin' heart. I suppose we weren't really meant to grow up and have a billion kids... "meh" oh well...



2-25-03, 1:11 (literature class): Blah blah blah...this discussion is absolutly stupid!! My lit. class has sunk to an all time low. Discussing the values of friendship. MEH on them!! Why must I always be surrounded by absolute snots, who act like they have a stick up their bum? God, I hope I never act like that.
I, of course, show my rebellion by writing in my notebook. Finally, the teacher sees my lack of interest and growing annoyance, so she says with her "stick up her bum" voice, "Sally-Joe(name changed to protect the whatever) tell us what you think?" I close my notebook slowly, and stand up. "Honestly, I think it's a bunch of crap." Honestly..I don't get why she got all ruffed up, she asked my opinion and I gave it to her! There was no need for the detention slip that followed for not paying attention and being disrespectful for my opinion. I have learned not to be honest with teachers.

A.E.D.Journal Entry 3-28-03: My first real P.D.A.!!! (public display of affection!!) has happened! The new Boyfriend!! I shall recollect as much as I can;
I was Walking to my 7th period class, and on instinct I looked behind me (I must have boyfriend radar!) There was Andrew; the new boyfriend! I compose myself with a flip of my ponytail and an extra sway in my hips. "hey!" I say with a flash of my unretainered pearly whites. "heey.." he says slipping his arm around my waist smooth (like the sexy thing he is!!) he walks with me and we make small talk. Suddenly of all moments, Stupid Omar comes up and does a little guy punch on my man. anyway..further down the hall I stop in front of my class and say with a hot smirk, "this is my class..." "okay" he says ans gives me a kiss right on the cheek!!


A.E.D 4-2-03: In literature class again, and of course am extremely pissed. I checked my lines for out reading time. oh, AHEM let me rephrase that..I checked my LINE for our thirty five page story. ONE LINE throughout the entire story!! I show my rebellion once again by pausing whence my single line came and letting those stupid snots wait for me to look up and slowly say my lines. thank god the bell for last perios rings in 5 minutes! *hums alleujah*

A.E.D 4-7-03: oh my god!! absolutly fabulous day!! there is always a good and bad to being love, so I have found out. New boyfriend Andrew has kissed me!! I have a sneaking suspicion that it was on camera, in the A.P.'s office (assistant pricipal). but then, comes the bad..he has tennis practice!! (damn damn damn and double damn again!!) I wonder if I should go to his tennis game, I dont want to throw off his game or nothing with my kicking curves...I wonder if he gets sweaty I wonder if he will take off his shirt...I cannot miss this opportunity. CRAP. I forgot, "The chipmunk" (ex-boyfriend Jishnu) is on the team too. I cannot imagine him taking off his shirt... *shudders* There is nothing there, he is just a head and legs!! I cannot believe I used to go out with him.

A.E.D. 4-9-03- In language arts class, its extremely cold out in these bloody portables, like a freaking ice cube house. luckily I have brought one of my mommy's sweatshirts; sexy around the waist and cozy on the top. *snifflesniffle* Iam sick, stuffy nose and guyish voice -.-. My mom told me not to kiss anyone whilst I be sick, I wonde rIf pecks on the cheek count as kissing? anyway, she says she doesnt want me to get mono (mononucleosis; also known as the kissing disease)again. I remember, it was last year I had mono, I hadnt kissed anyone But I thought it would've been damn funny if I had got mono from kissing a boy. anymahWHO.. Ex first loveheartbreaker derek called, says he doesnt wants me to go out with this andrew fellow. HMP! the nerve of him!! first he tells me he loves me, then he wants to marry me, then he breaks my heart. now hes telling me who I can or cannot go out with! how dare him!! I quickly told him, "WTF, im NOT your girl anymore." Then he babbles on about how he didnt mean that...blah blah blah...shove it heartbreaker! theres no room for you now, you blew your chance with the all time beauty, I aint your ragtag lil bizatch to come at your every beck and whim!!... I didnt say that but im sure my irritated silence said it all.
In advisory today I was told by an unfamiliar source that andrew liked to flirt with too many people by my measure! hmm, was also told he did some pretty strange things!! ...I must see into this...
A.E.D. A later date- Found out that the only person andrew would cheat on me is christina Aguleira..All I have got to do now is keep Christina's filthy claws off my man and im good.
A.E.D. 4-14-03 DAMN IM GOOD!!! Finally got a couple of First clarinet Pieces in band for our final concert. atlast..justice *ahem* is partly served. ^.^. Mr. Johnson (band director) Decided to do a couple jazzy pieces, one being "night Train," I have never heard it but I can play it damn good with a nice swing (do I think too highly of myself?) I have a Couplr of new aspirations on what to become when I grow up, one is to move to canada and play Ice hockey, two is to become a model,and finally be a photographer. Oooh...or maybe A jazz musician!! My nickname could be "baby panther." Too many lovely choices!!! egad... *sits down for a moment*.
BREAKING NEWS!!!
I have found a way to put on eyeliner!! I usually do only a light jobunder the eyes to give me a bit of the, "Im sassy and I know it" but also giving off that, "Hey, im nice" look. BUT today I went overboard. Did my eyes so dark I nearly mistook myself for A victoria Secret model Showing off her undrawers in the the mirror. I decided, "logan, Why do you do the line a little bit higher?" So I take my glorious Eyeliner and move the line up higher to my upper eyelashes. I admire my handiwork and add a touch of mascara to the eyelashes for A bit I length. I then go put on my clothes. five minues before i go, I look one more time in the mirror making sure every strand of hair is in place, dabbing a little more Bodyspray on and fixing the basooma area. "holy victoria secret emsemble.." I whisper to the mirror. I have to much makeup on I wiill need a Shovel and crap loads of cold cream to get it off. BUT I have invented a look so lushess that it is only suited for concerts. as so much makeup is very unbecoming of an already gorgeous hottie like me.


A.E.D. Quote 4-14-03 12:26 am: "playing Jazz music Is of course, Soul stimulating like all music, depending on your choice, but Jazz is a more slinkier and smooth way of musical Depth."


-me


A.E.D. 5-30-03: holy crap man...I havent written An A.E.D. for soo long!! so much has happened. Well, School is out. Many tears and hugging yesterday on the last day. I hope my pictures come out. mwa haha. My friend Cathy asked me to take a picture of this boy she really liked in this class, so me and her walk in like its nothing. soon as everyone is gathered around, I see she isnt standing by him, and he is in the back and he is really short, so i decide to do a little rearranging. "Short people in the front!" I said pulling him in the front and giving him a little push toward cathy. My friend cathy started to freak out. so after I take the picture all these people are like, one more man, one more So after about A million pics with a million boys I take off. ~Important!!!~ I cut my hair. all of it. im not bald...its just really really short. told by some people that I looked like a retarted boy and a dog. dont I feel special. oh well. forget them.

6-??-03- WOW!!! its summer...finally...and I have not written in here for the longest while! well. prepare, becuase a whole bunch of stuff has happened! ~BOYFRIEND UPDATE~ well, andrew and i are still friends..but I seemed to have broke his heart by running off to a 4'8 midget. well, that midget thing didnt work. no now Iam single and free! *stretches out* YEAH, I love it! well...anyway I got a very nice tan, finally but I think I like myself better pale..I just dont look right with dark dark skin.

6-??-03- wow... **updates** it seems that iam growing again...need new clothes! the ones i have strangualate my ever growing extensions.


6-30-03-unbelievable. derek has come back. *stunned silence* hes not changed one bit. hold on, lemme recall. he came to my door...knocking, I opened it up, still in my P.J.'s mind you, I was so shocked I shut the door. I took a few deep breaths and tried to remain calm. after the whole happy reunion thing, iam un-happily reminded by my mother how she had to pick up my broken pieces, and not just my mom, my brother! I try not to remember the painful times in my life... *sigh* signing off for the while. toodles.


june something- *sigh* school is coming oh so close. This year, Iam finally in 8th grade! atlast much more responsibility is layed upon us! A.K.A= social studies TAKS. (TAKS= Texas assesment something something) my friend and I were deeply discussing the upcoming 8th grade dance, which mind you we only have 10 monthes to prepare for. Iam thinking, that I shall go stag with a group of my friends. derek is leaving tomorrow, oh well.


~*update*~ Have just come back from New Braunfels with my my friend. it was pretty boring up there, Cuties were a minority. ~*Funny moment*~ We met a boy and we called him cowbow because he insisted wearing a cowboy hat and the american flag boxers. Wee-ll! he asked for my name and I did as my dad told me to do, If anyone asks for your name, its Audrey Hepburn. And so I told cowboy my name is Audrey. and we told him our cabin number. me and my friend took and early night so we fell asleep around 11:00. the next morning her grandma tells us that a boy came to the door real late asking for "audrey" and she said that there was no audrey here. my friend and I laughed until we coulndnt laugh no more. *sigh*

ah well. used an entire camera yesterday on pictures of derek and me. its actually quite funny.. he kept making the flash go off in his eyes. st00pid.
ah well, signing off.

Sometime in july~ Hm, have just got back from dance camp. *sigh* very...VERY tired. When I walked in the door my parents said hi and I replied "hey babes." I dont know why I said it... It just slipped out. I do believe my heard my mom say "did she just call us babes?" as I sat heavily in the dining hall. band camp is coming up soon...why oh Im doing band again, I must've been sniffing some nailpolish remover when I signed up for it again. It really is too much hassle, for something I dont even want to do! especially since my school is going to have lockers this year, and books are going to be issued out..and plus my Dance at Ann Moody Sill's dance studio is performing this year so I suppose we will be working really hard, and also school dance. ugh, Im not prepared. why cant I just be a lazy teenager? (-.-)
ahh, well in my spare time thats what im going to be doing, so signing off for some ZzZ's.


a week and a half before school~ *sigh* have just come back from funplex! hehe. with my new haircut..I look sorta like jamie lee curtis from freaky friday. anymahoo. saw cutie patutie jassim from school at funplex. and way they were breaking into one of the games to get the coins. I just walk up to him and his friends and they got all nervous. I poked jassim. he looked at me and waved. his other friend matt looked at me all nervous like. me being the cool cat that Iam said, "may I help you?" and jassim said hey logan. unto which matt replied, "you dont work here?!" I laughed my ass off. hehe It seems my haircut makes me look much much older. hehe. my brother got all brotherly on my ass and was like..who are those people. *sigh* brothers, how annoying. well just though to say that.



sometime before school~ iam depressed. no denying it. I hate...HATE, people who are hitting on me currently. its so annoying. all I want is to be left alone.


August 13-03~ how do I know the date? not by choice my friend. during the summer, I do try and forget the date, but tomorrow...yes tomorrow is school. I feel so old. -.-. finally Iam the eldest in the school! it feels kinda neat to have little 7th graders look up to you. any way...Iam certainly NOT looking forward to the new renovations... so...so...NEW. and it smells like old crackers in there. *sigh* only good thing about the school is it has a window. and its a big one too. *sigh* hehe, I really cant wait to see andrew. I kinda missed him over the summer. hehe he called me a while ago, said he missed me and well I missed him too. man! Iam hyped right now, not sure if im gonna get any sleep. Tokyo Ghetto P**** (japanese group) can do that to you. *dances around living room in plaid skirt and socks* I do believe I heard my mum in the other room telling me to knock it off. *sigh* buuuuuuuuuuzzKILLER! ah well, will report with the boy status after school tomorrow!





08-14-03~ *sigh* I hate school. its so mean. this one guy kept coming up to me and asking me if I was a guy or a girl. besides, have almost every class with this guy I really really do not like. hes really mean to me. I really dont feel like catalouging all the other mean things that happened today, so I will report back something good happens.



9-5-03~ bestest friend hannah's B-day party and sleepover is tomorrow. mom is being a poo. not allowing me to pick up (almost cute) friend for party. *sigh* ah well. things have gone better. dance team seeming to shape up. although we look like escaped convicts in our performing outfit. shall update tomorrow on party status!!



9-7-03~ party status: excellent. we played kiss, kiss or kiss and wach kiss being a different kind. I kissed everyone!!! *happy sigh* Johnny put his arm around me. *more sighing* but her mom came up the stairs and said, "this isnt' a sex party now!!" It was quite hilarious actually but I was kinda mad coz he was really warm and cozy.



9-13-03~ well...last night I had one of the insomniac nights where at quarter to 4 I had mask on and was currently playing FF7 for the past few hours. around four thirty I managed to fall asleep. then I wake my happy lil ass up at 7. yah yah yah. -.-. *sigh*
Since I have been working out pretty frequently, I seem to be forming baby abs!! that is awesome. its faaaaaaaaaaabulouuuuus!!! *claps hands real quick* Finally, im home alone! I don't get too many of those. Parentals exstatic with progress report from school. I seem to be acing every class I have, Especially in Language Arts in which I have a 111. Im not liking my dance team so much. our dance routine (for the pep rally which is next friday) when we practiced it yesterday (friday) I now have black and blue and red knees. every part of my knee cap is dotted with purplish and reddish brusing. ooer. -.-. my knees already really messed up from my rombunctious child hood, and I have the scars and skin deformations to prove it, ain't so good.


Am Currently jamming to Ruki Vverh (russian pop star)'s Normalniy vehcer. oops, pardon moi song has just ended am now listening to all famed "What is love" By Haddaway. Excuse moi for a moment for it is time to dance around the house.



30 mins later~ alright im back. Have decided to make this saturday a working one. about to go shower and walk dogs then work out a lil bit then call friends. I shall report back!! *MWUAH*




9-16-03~ ahhh. have a boyfriend. name- david. status- cool! today in the lunch lines bestiest friend hannahs boyfriend was holding her, unto which I turned to david and said, "WHY DONT U AND ME EVER DO THAT?!?!" of course He knew I was joking, but complied anyway. *sigh* im afraid that david will cheat on me wit a guy, as he is "Bi." anyway, it will be cool while it lasts. SHALL UPDATE TOMORROW!!!



9-17-03~ bummerish news people. Pep rally and free dress day set for friday have been cancelled. pooh pooh and double poooooooooh. oh and other good news is... *drumroll* I HAVE DETENTION!!!! *claps for joy...not* I have it scheduled for next tuesday...ohh goodie goodie. just for not having a belt..now they're lucky I didnt have a belt or else I would've had to take it off and beat the stupidity off them. (-.-) oh well, oh and more good news. Later on today I got a referral for huggin my MAN. -.- heres the story:
okay, im tryin to open my locker and the damned thing wont open, I see my guy david walking toward me and I plea him to open it for me, for without it..math would be futile. so he opens it for me lickety-split like and I give him a hug. and my teacher Ms. Burgess gets on my ass about PUBLIC DISPLAY OF AFFECTION!!! and there over by the stairs these kids were freakin GOING at it. -.- but noo...me the friends girl has got to get written up. so inside the class she tells me to call my mama to tell her "What I do at school." well, Seeing the phone, and not really feel like talking to my mom at the particular moment, I dial a few wrong numbers then hang up and say I couldnt reach her. *sigh* then I had to stand up...I dont know why, I think she just doesnt like me :(. WELL ANYWAY...jaunted with david home. it was cool, me and him talked a whole bunchies..I learned much about him. *dreamy sigh* after that I went to chill out with my friend loly, for about an hour. well thats all that happened today!! i will report sooooooooooooon *MUAH*






9-23-03~ ugh ugh ugh. Not feeling chipper at all. had detention today..goodie goodie. good thing I have a voice inside my head that talks to me, or else I would've gone insane with the silence. I dont know. I feel like a fallen angel...Or likea vampire with a conscious. I used to not care about other peoples emotions, now im paranoid. ugh...poundind beats in my ears calm my inner paranoia. (A.K.A.= im listening to sandstorm) *sigh* and plus some teacher was getting on my ass about hugging people again...shiet man. those teachers can kiss my croutons. -.-




9-29-03~ TODAY IS MY MOMMIES BIRTHDAY!!! *throws confetti everywhere* Im not sure how old she is..and neither is she, hehe.
Saw David (current boyfriend) today, Im really glad me and him got close, and oh oh today is our 2 week anniversary!!! *claps* today was really really good despite its a gold day, (meaning I have all my solid classes AKA: Lit, math, french, lng arts and such) well..
im home alone. I feel like doing something wild..Im a liking this being home alone, because Im usually home with someone. Sometimes a girl just needs an hour to dance around the house in her underskimpies to blaring music =D. preferably techno music. Theres just somthing about Techno music that just makes me want to dance all night long. aww man. My playlist just played the next song..It just had to be a slow sad one. damn playlist. *changes CD'S* THERE WE GO!!! *jams to the blood rave* hm hm hm. OOH!! *~UPDATE~* KHLEO THOMAS IS SOOOO FINE!!! he is beyond the valley of cuteness and into the universe of hot. *dreamy sigh* (incase you people don't know who that is, its Zero from Holes) Which, I finally saw on saturday. OH OH, and shia Lebouf is also a hottie tottie!! *sits down* im getting too excited here. well fingers hurt from raving and trying to type so toooodles!!!



10-01-03~ FIRST DAY OF OCTOBER!!! *cheers* well, good thing im in an awesome mood lately because I need to put all that positive energy into my studies...im not doing so good, I really need to get off the computer and study, *lazy grin* ah well, must be off to go to school...shall report after dance practice and homework done..toodles





10-03-03~ PEP RALLY TODAY!!! it was awesome!!! I was really nervous, but not becoz of 1,200 kids starring at me, but because of david..I dont know why though. Hee..David finally met my mommy today. She thinks he's a cutie and so do I. *sigh*...I think I might love him. NOT SURE THOUGH...but i really think I do. im really happy when im with him. I think my so called best friends are ignoring me..They seemed to have forgotten that I existed. they ignore me alot...and stacy (one of my friends) boyfriend (my ex boyfriend) is a complete jack ass to me. ;.; oh well...maybe..I will make better friends..:'(...*is listening to sad music* *sigh* I've not felt this way about..anyone for a long time. ever since derek. *sigh*...everytime, I let someone get close to me, I feel like im going to mess everything up and should just skip the drama and go straight to the breaking up part. thats..how it was with nick, I think it's all derek's fault im like this...im scared..I guess. but I love David and I dont want to mess this up.




10-6-03~ weee!! monday morning!! i hate these!! *runs around happily trying to get dressed for school* oh well..I seemed to be severely addicted to the movie "Holes"...because today im putting up pictures of Shia Lebouef and Khleo Thomas in my locker!! *sqeals* hehe..WELL..today I hope is going to be a good day, although I cant go to KODA (band thing coz of grades) well, ima be off ta school!!! TOODLES...


10-10-03~ ahhh atlast it is friday...going to new friend deborah's and laurens for the weekend....*sigH* yesterday took 9 week exams VERY TIRING!!! oh well...not too much to report so TOODLES>...


same day~ ONE WORD FOR U!! ~*ELSIK*~


10-12-03~ I DYED MY HAIR RED!!! WEEEEEEEEE



10-15-03~ absolutely fabulous DAY! had a wundervar time at band day!! got to spend alot of time with david! *content sigh* ...one of my best friends broke up with her boyfriend...well not technically she got me to do it, coz I know how she feels she didnt want to hurt him and all but it wasnt working out for her. everyone is supposedly mad at her and its really wearing her down. so I say to her, look guuuuuuuurlfriend...it dont matter what other people think..or say. you dont have to worry about anyone at this stage but yourself...are you happy? (she nods her head) THEN WHAT ARE YOU WORRIED ABOUT??! see..im such a good friend. *nodding head approvingly* well...today was still awesome when mom came home with pizza and movies! (coughHOLEScoughMATRIXcough) MWA HAhahAhahAhahAha. well..anyway...this boy I liked from last year told me he liked me and I cant believe it..he could've had better timing BUT HEY! I was soo happy I couldnt stop laughing! but now theres a problem. I like my boyfriend..but then theres this other person!! WHAT IS UP WITH THAT!but nothing is gonna get me down today..ill ponder about it tomorrow in 8th period *content sigh*




10-21-03~ forgive me for not updating this more regularly..but if you have not already noticed but I think texas (my home town) has a flu epidemic going on and I caught it...BAD. been out of school for like 2 days. its horrible really. guh...ive been feeling a little better so I thought to keep you notified that iam indeed still alive...*coughhackcough* guuuuuuuuh...i have so muuuch work to do...




11-1-03~ I had a wondeful day. old time friend chris and me went to the mall and then he came to my house and we watched a movie. it was incredible im soo happy. It has been a great weekend soo far. i hope tomorrow goes as well. and to make things even better im listening to this great song...ahh...things are soo wonderful.




1-12-04~ ah yes tis the new year..forgive me for not updating this..have been way too busy. well to update this christopher and i went out for a month and some odd days and then he broke it off because he wanted to be more independant and free. free my ass. i hadnt seen that boy for 2 weeks then all of a sudden he breaks it off. -.- what a tradgedy. and of course i loved the relationship so of course tissues were issued and many a hugs we given. he is so un-deserving of my attention. anyyyyywaaaaaaays...hair..red..extremely short still...went to get it trimmed..and THIS LADY BOTCHED IT COMPLETELY! doing alright to get over this last heartbreaker..although already having enough trouble beating back the boys to give myself some room to take a breath and be just me for a while before i go charging back unto the river of love. well gone to go eat bagels..shall report sooner!



1-30-04~ ah weehh...pleez forgive moi again for the delay of updates but having trouble writing. have seen the final lord of the rings, twice if i may add and had a nice tear fest at the end both times hehe, don't you just love to have a good movie make you tear up? i remember when i saw the first movie the second time for my b-day party i cried because it ended and i wanted to know more hehe call me a sap for good tear jerkers but it is always good. anmahoos enuff of my movieness. school doing good boring as usual...i recently found a new revelation of myself and that if i were to quit band i would be throwing away a part of myself, so i decided to keep playing the clarinet and hope to expand my knowledge and learn more instruments. ah, as highschool draws nearer i find myself thinking more and more of whats going to happen. iam so eager, yet so scared. moving on...valentines dance coming up...last time i asked my friend steven to escort me..but he's moving! so my other buddy johnny is going to escort me..i tell ya, i use the word escort because iam simply not ready for a relationship bleh this last one got my panties all up in a twist and iam still fixin teh heartache but who in the world would pass up a chance to see most all of their buddies for 3 and a half hours jamming and dancin to music? not i, i dare say. *sigh* i need a job! to get some greeeeen...i was asking my p.e. coach yesterday if there were and jobs willing to hire 14 year olds...but she just laughed and told me to go away. hmph. shes just bitter coz i dyed my hair red. *sigh* well off to go practice wortham center performance dance... ;)!


2-29-04~ my goodness...i really must update more. WELL i must update of the dance. well when i arrived with my friend hannah we were the only people there truly dressed "formally" well pooh on them coz we were purtifull. then stacy came and we waited for "teh men" to show up, late they were! but when johnny finally showed up i got scared and ran into the bathroom and then finally after I gain some courage I go out and greet him (he is such a cutie!!!!!) well then we danced and danced danced until we coulnt dance anymore. well after the dance we waited and then stacy said she coulnt take us to dennys which was our plan but nooooo and then it ended up as only hannah keith and I and omg it was soo much fun. hehe too much to remember and so little i care to write down and then yeaaaaaaah the next day was johnny and i's one month (valentines day) so yay! but shhhhhhh... ;) well thats all for now i shall try very hard to post daily =D

3-2-04~ hallooo...well. couldnt sleep...been up since 12, came downstairs about an hour ago. watched a lil bit of LoTR RotK (but shhh!!)hahaha and i found out peter jackson is doing "the hobbit!!!!!!!!" and it will be out in 2006. I love leaked trailers..hehe. well such an odd feeling coming over me..i dont know if it's exhaustion on just sheer..early morningness. (meaning the groggyness you get when you wakeup) well..was talking to johnny last night and he said he didn't know when he had track practice in the morning or afternoon..and if you miss a practice I think you're off the team and what not..so he didnt want to go early for nothing so I was okay dude come to my house if you don't have practice..because I live 2 secs away from my school...(across the railroad tracks)so yeah..>.< he might come before schoooooool..BLAH I feel so blah right now, I wish I had a big workout room..with bars and mirrors (think ballet room) that would be so awesome...well anymahoo off to go watch early mindless television..


3-8-04~ ALOHA!! how is everyone doing?? nobody ever comments on this so i wouldnt know!!! well anyway today was an almost fabulous day not quite though...! in 5th we got our highschool induction thingie so i was like OKAY! and got my course selection sheet..so yeah..then the lady left and we had like an hour so kevin and i talked a whole crap load and shiiiiiiiieeeeeeeet... then the rest of the day was boring..7th period amusing though...SO YEAH!! i shall update more then life seems to incline me so..OH YEAH!! andrews b-day is tomorrow!!!!!!!! i need to go get him a gift..!


3-15-04~ well yesterday was johnny and I two month anniversary. we were supposed to go take pics or whatever..but he never called me!! so i was like OKAY forget this and went out with my bro and his gf amanda to see "the last samurai" it is such a good mooooooovie!! omg yaah. well had another late night, well I should probably say early morning..woke up at 2 and couldnt sleep. well dying my hair red and black chunks today hoping to get the IRIA and zeiram look (see my xanga to know what iam talkinga bout) well must be off ttyl!


3-16-04~ yesterday was awesome. me and my cousin went to funplex played DDR and we saw my friend kevin and javier and kevin was all messing around i was like okay retard..!! then they left and it was just me my cousin and kevin and we decided to go back into the place and kevin gave me a piggy back ride coz I hurt my leg and my footie..lol then lauren wouldnt open the door and we were like "OPEN THE DOOR!!" and then he dropped me on the ground and I just kind of layed there for a while..lol and then kevin and my cousin helped me up and we chilled behind the stage at funplex...man we wasted like 10 bucks playing DDR and then my cousin was all complaining how she was hungry and tired and had a headache and I felt bad coz I wasnt taking very good care of her and kevin was like hey and he gave her a dollar to go buy something so it was me and him outside and we were talkinga bout a whole bunch of shit..but I was kinda distracted coz I kept looking at myself in the mirror on the side of the building..dayum my hair looks awesome...lol well aiight iam out!!! with and X and O and iam out like WOAH~


3-27-04~ BLAH. I CANT GO TO BAND UIL. THIS SUCKS!!! *cries*...on the brighter side..I am going to get new lyrical shoes today


5-8-04~ WELL. sorry for the extremely long delay. as I have not been myself lately. Well, I have just been released from a mental hospital because I didn't want to live anymore, and I got help there for about 2 weeks. came back and I have a totally new perspective on stuff. I try and not let things affect me so much. johnny and I have broken up..pretty good thing too.
and so now I am a fresh new bachelorette or however you spell it. but I must find an escort for the dance!! the 8th grade dance and that's groovy because hopefully andrew will go with me if he can go. oh..and at the MH (mental hospital) they diagnosed me with alot of stuff.. like bi-polar another mood disorder and severe depression I know that sounds like I am psycho..but Iam really not..I am a normal teeage drama queen to the fullest extent. OoOoO and I GOT A NEW CELL PHONE!! it is soooooooooooooo awesome!!!!!! it can take pics and go online and its just sooooooooooooo grooovy!!!!! OOOOOOOOH YEAH!
It's definately going to be the summer of the jamming Ruki Vverh- Normalniy Vecher
OOOH..soo much news. the show at the wortham center is coming up soon!! I cant wait! our costumes are so spectacular, I look soo purty if I do say so myself. hopefully my leg will heal..I have a brace on it because I tore a muscle so I am trying to relax and chillax so I can dance on thursday........!!!!
WITH AND X and an X and i am out like WOAH! ::MWUAHZ::

5-22-04~ such sadness...almost the end of the year at albright middle school. ;.;. I feel so sad, leaving everything behind...but oh well!! ONTO THE FUTURE!! that which is ELSIK HIGHSCHOOL!!! w00. next year ima be a fishie ((freshman)). sooo long and it's finally here. maybe I should get a new journal and scrap this one? y'all tell me what I should do. well Hannah is going out with johnny..and me hannah and stacy my 2 bestfriends ever have decided we need to spend more time with each other because we are either ignoring each other or not telling if we have a problem. we need to get together! the 2 musketeers!! groovy gravy noodles man. well iam off to the movies with group of friends to see troy.. ::wink wink!!::
WITH AN x AND an O and I am OuT LyKe WOAH! ::MWUAHZZZZZZZZZZZZZ::


6-28-04~ TERRIBLE SORRY....havent updated in a frightful while...well friend updates hannah broke up with johnny and now johnny was like i wanna go back with you and i was like hah hahahahahahaha fat chance ass hole. so anyway summer courses aren't all that bad..it's really easy...6 months of school packed into 8 weeks..awesome. LUCKY ME I won't have to do it..well I have cut my hair unbelievably short..think Annie lennox at the academy awards ya that short..well nothing spectacular is happening in my life..as usual..well you JUST WAIT!!! wait until school starts, I will have loads to write!!

MUCHOZ LUV!!! ::hugs kisses and smishies::