I lost my father on Oct 3rd, my mother on Dec 14th of last year. I took care of my mother while she was on home hospice. I am also a recovering alcoholic, sober for 8 years. My doctor put me on an anti depressant after my father, and then added a second one after my mother. Although that helped greatly, it was not enough. I started seeing a grief counselor and she suggested I start a journal. I was not capable of doing that so she told me to just write something. So that is what I have done.