Almost

High school was nothing I thought it would be; at least not for me. I thought I'd be a star, someone everyone knew and looked up to. It wasn't high musical where everyone for the most part got along; no it wasn't culeless where the biggest problem was what to wear to the dance. It was more like, like a nightmare on elm street, where was just a little scaring and everyone was at eachothers thoats. A nightmare that you wake up from four years later. For me it wasn't so much like lean on me fighting for your life, but for me an outsider. Yeah, outsider that was me. Aways wanting a friendship, trying to be the cool kid but it never worked. My mom would tell me to be myself and they will like you for you. But still it never worked. Yet I tried and tried thinking oneday it would all pay off. When it didn't help I would think well maybe I need to do something better
and maybe that would help but it didn't. That's when I decided to just be me. No longer wondering what I needed to change in order to make friends. I was being me and no one else, I almost lost myself in the mist of everything. I almost gave up my the best part of me. I almost decided that I didn't matter, that being me was no longer an option. I almost gave up. But now I've changed into something beautiful. It was the time in my entire life that I finally realize who I was.