The poem has some of my personal struggles embedded within it. Enjoy and please comment. |
The dead shadows, a frozen floor My feet touch as a match to water No need to mind my exit Every being rests as the ancient one strokes another hand threw his beard It does not matter what he says No eyes set on my path, no ears to my tread And softly I kill them, a cold hearted murderer One trust by one They sleep forever more Even the alarm quiets as the body twitches But the soul mourns Rising up flesh from heart I rest my thoughts away Their own do not dare listen I have no hope in life At least says my rotting carcass As my own soul attempts its escape Violently breaking through as the skin bursts forth And upon it I stand The new, The aged, The timeless. - As I succeed past the physical I float in the great abyss The gap between life and death finds itself no longer gaping But sown together as the seamstress heaves her final breath she encompasses me A quiet space, A dark space, Infinite space, She is on my heels And I am head over, yet my whole self lies under “I thought I escaped this fate! This trauma” She soothingly breathes down my neck, “You slip you fall, You will witness it all, The struggles of man, the temptation of heart You’re with me forever we’re never apart.” My knife reaches my throat, the point on my throbbing target. Her hand reaches out through dusk and dawn, through yesterday and tomorrow The birth and the end. “No, you have no reason.” I spread my parched lips to utter my reply in defiance, But she hushes me, “Remember you are not even real anymore. You have changed” - My weary body is on a conveyor Per every step I fall back Yet I believe what I see, and what I hear I allow room for their error I have no body I slip and fall deeper into the dark pools of consciousness Submerged till my literal breath escapes and none to quickly I float to the top Only to drop as lead again Momentum shakes and I am spewed forth on the wings of a cold rising eagle Soaked through I lay on the frozen floor And they look at me and laugh, while others offer me the comfort of heart “None of you are here, in this time you will cower” Their eyes lock with mine, “Oh how could I doubt her?” The words penetrate me As the flaming arrows of the enemy scorch the oncoming legion I could muster no strength. Till I collapsed and the tide brought me back To all that I still lack I hide in my body, my body hides in her words. - No one can tread the path behind I set everything forward And invincible I walk The sand mocks my way, trail me if you must I will take you to the point of oblivion Where even the sky does not follow I know not how and where I reach for it But time will stand no fight Walk to the end, and take a step farther Together I believe we can go My burdens lay heavy, strive on. Distinction reverts to blotted lines The world is left behind with all its ungodly memoirs and empty shrines Step by step I wade in to what I cannot see The cold sweat soothes the race horse within my chest I stumble, I pick myself up, I put my feet down, I keep moving, And I just keep moving My eyes dim, what is ahead of me seems to falter - I reached where they said no man can enter. I told them I had come to find that. That overbearing thought that the world sits on edge. I step forward, And she’s there. Her hair is of silk her skin is soft. We engage and I have been caught My hands run her side My eyes race around her body And I wrap around it all. She has no fear as she greets me My mind shatters the illusion grasping the less interactive reality I divert my actions, she chases as the moon hunts the sun Speaking, “Remember the days of old When you and I were simple and bold Standing stiff our bodies never did fold.” And I replied, “Remember you curse? Follow my worn path of denial. And we walked hand in hand to my own funeral, single file.” She began to cry. The skies darkened beneath my brow. I forced passed her just to catch her hand The thorn stuck me, and I stood protruding there. - I bleed like the others I witness my own failures as well I hold onto what I believe I lift my weighted shield And my sword swings at my side No one stands before me but her. I thrust at her open skin, But I pull, I pull back So innocent, so free The songbirds call me a coward I look to the rising sun and turn my head to the other setting, and I begin To flee hopeless abandon Nothing between the ground and me As a fish to water I take off The horizon never nears, but I count my losses and my fears Less I hold in my palms then before, my body coughing blood but I persisted Life revealed itself as something worth attaining. During my flight I swam against the current With the mountains as my witness. No one approached me. I felt as a lightening bolt For I was free She was behind, I no longer inclined. - My escape was victory and my victory fell upon me As a leper and everything I feared came true My heart was abandonment The past looked so inviting Her cold touch seemed so homely Before me all I felt was the desire to avoid what I evaded And so I began running again But the desert heat was ever present Oh nothing satisfied, I felt left to rot. I was sent to the slaughter and my physical presence had consumed me once more. Compelled to regret, That is what I began and what I wanted to cast to the deep So I dove in to relinquish this, And that is where I am found The darkness I watched Swim in congruence with me It all seemed the same it all sent itself after me. - I cannot tell you what these words mean I wish it all to the beneath The harbor of the unseen Worn as the autumn leaf Time does not fall Floating through the rugged escape Our actions are never too small But, sadly lost to fate I am left to pieces Your hatred for me increases The summer dove, was my once lost love Now my heart is laid to rest With the chilled and scolding wind Yellow and red at best Your fantasy has reached its end And your anger pulses through your grasp Put down the fiery branches But I have thrown to far to cast And beside me lies your chances - My eyes are closed but it does not matter Hands before me I still cannot see While blood keeps circulating faster I know not what stands before me Of conquest, slaughter, and rhyme Banning coherence I would surrender my all to see the light and feel its shine But my dreams must abandon their stead As water chokes my living moments Flowing within me it all thickens to lead No fear in death for it feels like it is all placed in life’s sake I drown in an invisible dungeon This haunted lake, to the taste it is nothing but bitter A voice echoes out, “Lapping the shoreline of your body The water calls for sacrifice And its gift has found its way to this abode.” I strike out to sudden for the beast and to say simply the very least It fell back at least 10 feet. To give me my recovery How I miss the trees, grass, and moon so lonely - The air is chilled, but the atmosphere is rich in heat And no price can be placed at the foot of twilight Moist, is the draft, as a melody laden with fear During the seconds drip, and the rush of each wave Nearly securing itself with its grip; trees sway back and forth. The only bystander as life walks by taking no heed A violent noise sounds. And as time is spent across the waters and non existent To one leagues away from it does the note strike Its grasp caresses the back of one of the significant ones Suddenly blasts as trumpets sound and the ensemble dives into a stronger verse. The heat rises and the fog leaps, but they remain on the ground his hands on her hips, her hands on his shoulder while bother their eyes are closed they can see one another in magnificent detail. A depth of understanding and perception are conceived. As each are locked in the others universe only to release the handle and stand together. No longer as him and her but one. They float the seas of passion in the windows to each other’s soul. As time and travel evacuate the conscience all is forgotten. Except for the now phantoms of each one’s presence. A light, a rude light, cuts the fog and a man steps out of his realm and enters theirs. “Run! Take my hand get on your feet!” he says “Why must we stop? Why must we cease? Wait for me!” she sadly blurts. - A hand reaches out and takes hold of her, the sweaty palm loses its hold and the two escapes with one held at their heels. He looks into the sky as they run seeing the stars shine brilliantly that night, and he then glimpses into her eyes. “How bright” he mutters, she pays no attention. As the chase continues the two find an alcove, a crevice. And watch as the intruder charges off. “Take me away, to where you are.” She whispers. He’s eyes glisten, “let’s board my ship, I know of this island from where all that can be seen is blue, the kiss of heaven and earth. The bond of the ethereal and physical. We shall go there. Let us challenge the two for the title of eternity. For once we land the four of us shall be alone. But I shall be with you, and you shall be with me. All I need is for you to follow me down this road. Stand into the light for the way is covered. - I stand before the ocean, it overcomes me. The sylvan woods march upon me Vastness encompasses my being My grain of sand washes absently back and forth I float dead, as apathetic as absent is. My eyes crush what lies before my feet Blank bodies scatter the ground as leaves cover a tree My whole is shook as hard as the world shakes Nothing I have learned is in preparation. I stumble forward groping in the dark Reaching forth I feel like my life has ended The boat that flowed so softly as I saw it from a distance rocks at my heels. Back and forth the murky depths scream death into my lungs while I inhale But this ship has been built Long ago, before I struck out to sea Before I could imagine such days. |