Emptiness

Emptiness

I felt a new feeling today that I hadn’t felt before
It wasn’t a feeling I remembered, nor wanted anymore
Where before I’d felt love and lived a happy life,
Now I felt an emptiness; and it cut me like a knife.

I remember being happy, I remember having fun
But all this was time spent, while with a special one
One day I looked around and she was no longer there
I knew she was nearby, but I really couldn’t tell where

I’m not sure how this came to be, I lost what I once had
Why I seemed so happy, now I’m perpetually sad
How is it life changes so, what causes these myriad things
I guess I’m not meant to understand, to memories I will cling

I know everyone is not like me, I see them as they play
Their smiles say so much more than words can convey
I know I had this once, and wonder at my bliss
How could I have been so stupid, to have lost all this

I look around and see such love, and wonder how they met
Will they always remain in love and never have to fret
Or will they follow the road I’m on and look around like me
Will they find solace in being alone, or end up quite happy

Given the choice of living like this, or having someone close
Stay with them forever, you’ll see your true love grow
If you find yourself alone, you have one thing to learn
That only you love yourself, for others you can’t yearn

Jim Dorrell
10/6/06