Witness to Withness #11

July 2, 2012
Yay, the computer is operative again-to think I almost lost all my hard work. So it is with life! I am glad that I can write, whether anyone will read my words or not. It is as if life finds opportunity to express itself and others can partake of words on a page even as they partake of food. Then again they can also choose to look elsewhere. This is what I celebrate. The Word becomes flesh and in so doing people’s value is transcended; a Word of life is left behind by resurrection. One person’s trash can be another’s treasure.

So I am back in the game. I have been sick with a breathing problem feeling trapped inside until I decide I am well and go outside to see what I have been missing out on. On top of that I am in a hostile work environment, in which people are more intent in seeing me lose my job than keep it. I feel much weakness. I am tired these days more than I like. I am glad for the word from Paul about the power of God being perfected in weakness; it is a sermon that reflects my current struggle. I miss my three adult kids (divorce seemed to strip them away from me). Today I saw my son Tim at Union Station in Kansas City and it helped a lot!! My physical limitations and hostility at work are weighing me down. I look forward to God Spirit raising me up to witness God healing power.

All I seem to do is sleep and sleep and yet it is what I need now. I am discovering victory in my love for sports. I run my seven miles in a week, do push-ups when I feel like it shoot baskets. Before my illness I had been pretty consistently hitting forty percent of my basketball shots, which is great considering I was hitting twenty per cent when I started. Life for me is about finding opportunity to grow. I enjoy the ways I stretch myself and others by giving and recieving questions that make myself and others think. I do know a savior who is Jesus Christ that rises me up out of feelings of total worthlessness and despair and dares me to see something good in myself and others and this is what makes life worth the effort!!!