This is an interesting piece. I'm curious to see how the story goes and hear about the things Alex actually does. Sociopaths make really interesting characters.
First, some things I like:
I got a very strong feeling of who the narrator is. There is no description of her, but her thoughts speak volumes.
I like that Alex is at this point a complete enigma.
"Loving her comes easy; liking her is often a chore." I really like this line, though I think it would be more effective if the emphasis was on 'liking' rather than 'chore'.
Alex hating "deeply and completely" is a really good description.
I think the last line carries quite a bit of impact.
Some suggestions:
"But through the last fourteen years, sometimes I swear I can hear Satan laughing softly in my ear." Personal preference, but I think "But over the last fourteen years" sounds nicer. ;)
"She was a tiny, withdrawn five-year-old with the biggest eyes I’d ever seen when Alex came into my life." I think this is a good line, but when I first read it I was left wondering if Alex was the she you referred to at the beginning. Alex could be a boy's name too. So at first I read it as you met a man named Alex and his daughter was 5 at the time. To clarify, switching the Alex and 'she' would be good. "Alex was tiny [...] she came into my life."
"She was a tiny, withdrawn five-year-old with the biggest eyes I’d ever seen when Alex came into my life. It wasn’t something I was consciously searching for, but perhaps I was looking for something to fill that hole in my life." I find this to be a stronger paragraph than the one you opened with. I normally would've read the first paragraph about God and Satan laughing in ears and quit then and there. I don't feel that it would be interesting enough for me to continue, and it doesn't seem to accurately represent what the story is really about- a mother's love/hate relationship with her sociopathic daughter. If these two paragraphs were switched I think it would flow very nicely. The woman has a hole in her life and the little girl filled it. Then the 'Would I go back and change things if I could?" line and those after carry more impact. I think switching these two paragraphs would just make the piece flow so much better.
"What scares me is lately I don’t even feel guilty about these thoughts." There are quite a few places where I think a 'that' could make things flow better, but this is the only one that I found jarring. "What scares me is lately" just sounds so much like someone chatting with friends rather than prose. If it's a stylistic choice, that's fine. I just wouldn't be doing a very good job reviewing if I didn't tell you what things distracted me from the story.
There are a great deal of short choppy sentences here. Of course, It could be a stylistic choice, but there are only 2 compound sentences in the last three paragraphs! I think that's a bit extreme, and I found it to be very distracting. One of the two compounds is actually a run-on sentence ("Maybe tomorrow I’ll wake up and she’ll just be gone, and the nightmare will be over." - 3 sentences - I will wake. She will be. Nightmare will be.) Much of the choppiness could be easily resolved. For example: "I think horrid thoughts. Things parents shouldn’t think." 'Things parents shouldn't think' is not a complete sentence. "I think horrid thoughts, things parents shouldn't think" is a complete sentence. Though it might read better as "ones [that?] parents shouldn't think". - I had the most trouble with the second to last paragraph. So many of those sentences are almost identical in length that it really detracted from what they were actually saying, for me anyway. If this is just your style, by all means continue. I just thought I'd mention it.
"She doesn’t do drugs or hang out in bars." I don't really understand why bars is emphasized. Bars are legal, drugs are often illegal. I know that a bar is off limits for a child in the US and elsewhere, but as of now we don't really know how old Alex is, or even what country this takes place in. It seems that drugs would be worse than bars, but for that matter it seems that 'doesn't' would be the word to emphasize to me. I just found it odd that bars are the least concerning to me out of your examples (promiscuity, drugs, jail), and yet that's the one that's bolded.
Overall, I think this is an interesting piece. It's not in a style I enjoy reading or find to be effective. I do hope that you aren't offended by this, but I feel a 3.0 is a perfect rating for this piece. It has great potential, but I find it to be rather average. Good luck with your future edits, and keep writing!
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